Basically, I won't go into details, but I was a 27 year old virgin who just recently lost that status. I lied to my family about what I was doing that night and stuff, and well I used to belong to the church and part of that guilt is really getting to me.

So I broke down and told a more liberal uncle about it that I talk to about everything and he basically said I should feel worse that I went without sex all that time and it was no big deal and I shouldn't need counseling. But I feel I do, and because of bp symptoms getting worse even on meds and bad things that happened to me lately it's adding to that.

I'm trying to think about the positive aspects of it, I really had fun and it was safe and stuff. Plus I never smiled that much in my life. Plus I'm overweight and bipolar and I didn't think any guy would want date me and I was wrong. I told the guy I was bipolar and that didn't phase him.

But seriously, I can't convince my uncle this was a big enough deal I probably need to talk to a professional about it ASAP.

That is what I need help with, trying to tell uncle that I might even need to go to hospital for a while to get myself sorted out, and a med change. Plus trying to accept what happened.