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Hunny · May 20, 2010, 10:34 AM

((((Anderson))))

You have gone above-and-beyond in taking care of your son and I recognize your need for some peace for yourself to be able to sort out stuff. I understand the necessity of finding the trauma triggers to ensure co-consciousness. After-all this is what I have been working on these past few months.

You will never be considered a joke here Anderson and I am sad for you that you cannot be near the ones you trust due to their own circumstances or whatever the reason. I am sure it is not you.

Acceptance, is not always forthcoming nor is paradise (was it ever here) or at least they are both not easy to obtain for me either. When I am in therapy I seem to go from that place of resistance to the place where there is a release from whatever I am working on. It takes quite a long time from the beginning to the end and I am tired after this time around and am trying to accept the outcomes and look for the silver lining. Maybe that is all there is acceptance and silver linings, when all is said and done and sharing with trusted others.

I am appreciative of all your caring and support along the way.

I also hope you find that this relocation still allows you to be in contact with you wonderful son and with those you trust and that you can build on those relationships, even if it is from a distance. Are you able to keep those connections? You needn't answer, just hoping. Mainly getting a safe distance from these perps seems wise and genuinely protective of yourself and if you feel so lonely please find a place to come and reconnect here till you build new friendships irl in your new location. I count those people very lucky to have you there.

It feels a bit sad to not be able to connect with you quite so much. There was a time that feeling would be foreign to me about someone because it would hurt too much, so in one way I guess it is good, in another way the numbness didn't hurt so much in denial-land but the self-harm of holding onto feelings can be so self destructive. I hope you can feel the wove but the unconditional love, not a binding or controlling wove, wister. We have to distance ourself/ves from this co-dependent love frequently due to our up-bringing with folks who have the disease of alcoholism.

So we pray you go with God and that you have 'good experiences' where you find yourself.

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Originally Posted by anderson

((((All)))
We do not know for sure but we are moving with out our son. It is time that he had a life. besides we are so burnt out on both past and present abouse memiors.
We do not know if we have the trauma trigger fully isolated yet so we fingure he is in good hands until we can know for sure that we are at least fully co-con.
The bit is those that we trust do not want to be pyscally in our lifes and those that we have meet since then have been here today gone tomarrow. We hope that we can find eace with some one before we become the town joke again. But either way we are still taken it day by day. The wacth dogs wont let us find peace here maybe some where else. for now those with in are happy because no can hurt us where we at but sad cause we no can be with those that we trust. They no want us in thier lifes we finely accepting it. We so sorry we had hope coming here would help us repair the relationships that we had had now we know we just need to let go. Some times paridise can not be found twice in one life time.
WE still hope and pray those here get it and know that life can be good we just have yet been able to find acceptance here yet........ sorry blah ....blah...... life can be good you just have to let go of what you want and accept what is given at times...