Yeah, I definitely think coming off would be best in the hospital. I have also looked at McLean but I figure if there are a few programs out there that accept insurance and I can even cut the cost in half for equally as good treatment then why not go that route. Meininger clinic in TX is out-of-network for me but my insurance still pays 60%. The program near Las Vegas also accepts insurance and seems like they would be in network so my insurance pays 90%. I wouldn't go in for a while but just weighing my options and trying to see if this is all worth the risk. If I were independently wealthy I'd go ahead and go. Since I'm not, it clearly makes things harder. I have about 6 places I'm in contact with right now about the process so we'll see. FYI BNL, I don't know where you live but there's a private pay program in CA that's $45,000 for 4 weeks. Overall I have found like 12 places that I could potentially go but I am only in contact with ones that accept insurance. Thanks for your input b/c like I said, I'm thinking emotionally right now and not logically about what would be best.

Thanks bp... I know about TMS and even found a program that offers it but not sure I want to go that route yet. It's too new of a technology for me and I'd like to see the 10 and 20 year results rather than knowing it works well for people now but what happens to that person over the next 10 year. We'll see. I wouldn't rule it out for me at this point.