I feel like crap. It was all I could do to get out of bed this morning to go to school. The last two days have been pure terror for me. Monday night I was counting pills and I told my T this on Tuesday and he said well you should have called the emergency line. When I call them all they tell me to do is use my coping skills. UMMMMMMM if I could remember what they were I wouldn't be calling. I hate calling the ER line because they are so condesending its sickening. I am ready to throw in the towel with school because its getting really hard and I'm getting behind. I know I should be doing my homework right now but I think hey I have til Tuesday to get it done so I'll wait til Monday night and do it then. Then I'll be in a rush and not do it right etc. Right now life is crappy.

Jbug