How are you Torn? I hope you are well. Of course there is hope. Hope is a wonderful thing and I believe we all have the potential (capability that is in potentia) to grow and develop.

I think recognising your worth goes hand in hand in recognising the weight and impact of the abuse. Read about abuse, about abusive interactions and relationships. If you had a kid (maybe you have?) would you treat them the way you were treated?

You are looking for answers and for the questions and its positive in itself. Just remember to be kind to yourself in the process and not abuse yourself....