ok so I've not been feeling much better. hate going through these really needy stages where it feels like T is always on my mind. It's like my mind is torturing me by imagining what T is doing every moment of the day. Eg. T is probably in a session right now, T is probably having breakfast with her family right now, T is probably tucking her kids into bed right now... I'm not apart of her world. Like I need a reminder.

What makes it worse, is that I emailed her after my session on Monday, just to touch base and ask her when my next time was because I was crying so much I can't remember. She usually emails within 24-48 hours. It's now Saturday... I texted her yesterday knowing she'd be at work so she would have seen my text... no reply. I kind of want to cancel and just leave therapy alone for a while.

need a hug