Hello, phantasmagoric. Does your psychiatrist know how you feel? Perhaps you could copy your posts and give or mail them to your psychiatrist? He or his replacement need to know about those concerns you have not disclosed.

Are you seeing a therapist? If not, why not?

You need to address your self-care issues now. Talk of possibly harming your self is very serious. Not graduating is not the end of the world. You can always get a GED.

Please call your psychiatrist and get things moving.

Good luck.