I totally can relate to the difficulty in trusting your therapist and the time it has taken to get to that point. It has taken me 20 years with the same T and even now at times I have difficulty. We talked just last week about this. She knows how hard it has been for me and she even said that if I were to start over with another therapist she knows that the trust issues would need so much time to develop with someone new. (not that I am looking for another therapist) I feel your pain = such a difficult thing to come to terms with after so much time with someone. I am happy you have a new employment opportunity yet I know the sadness you must feel. Keep us posted.