thanks ((((seventyeight))))
It isn't a great feeling These feelings haven't been this intense in a while, not for a year or so. At least I know that it can get easier. Apparently I just need to work through these feelings again.

Thank you Echoes maybe she didn't see it...I think I'll try and ring later.
No, I haven't mentioned it specifically. But she knows that my relationship with her is very important and that I think a lot. I haven't really said just how intense those thoughts are, but I suspect she knows.

I've been consciously trying to just notice things. I think mindfulness would benefit me greatly.. I should probably look into that.

Take care