Thank you for the book recommendation! I just finished one called "Good Grief" which is a funny, heart-warming yet somewhat sad story of one woman's loss of her husband. Reading really helps me to connect with feelings that I did not even know I had. I will look for the book!
Thanks too for not thinking it is strange that I am able to let go of the ashes so easily. I guess I felt I wasn't playing the "grieving widow" good enough. I would however, like to scatter them in one of his favorite fishing spots. Some of my happiest memories are of him fishing; with me sitting on the bank getting some sun and watching him.