I am sure that you remember my previous threads about my manipulative, bullying 'partner'. Things came to a head the other night and i told him i want him out. Its really bizarre, we have been together almost a year and he knew about my depression. In the past few weeks he has turned really nasty and calls me lazy and says that i am faking depression (??).

Anyway, he has said that he will leave when he is ready, but i need to know when. i tried speaking to my mum and dad and my dad said that i should just say sorry to the 'partner' and keep him here so he can pay the rent and bills.

I have had a problem with going out in general and dont even go to visit my parents. I managed to get to see them last night and this is the attitude i get from my father. He just doesnt understand this whole depression thing (neither do i for that matter!!) and then he tells me to keep a bullying, abusive partner around just because it is financially safer for me. I will eventually get benefits from the government, but this takes time.

Last night i honestly felt incredibly low and had a good cry and wondered why i am here, after all, i have more than one person telling me i am not very much good at anything, i have been trying really really hard, but now i just want to give up, push the erase and eject.....

i told my father that he just doesnt care about me and its true.