I have been up and down about therapy. A male therapist usually cracks open my exterior shields and then I end up getting in a fight about personal information I am not likely to share and then it breaks down with me finding a female therapist to console me and then not ask any important questions that would help me. This is a cycle that my medication provider gets me involved. She thinks I am too brainy and I need a male therapist with a lot of experience but they scare me because I envy how controlled they can be with emotions and I break down after a while and they don't comfort me. Whereas when I return to a female therapist they are more sympathetic to my emotional side and this is how the cycle goes. I am giving it a shot with a new male therapist since I revealed what the last one said to me during our sessions which resulted in his termination. When I am with other men I feel like I need to sharpen my mind with a sword fight of the intellect and then I break down because they always win because I am the patient. But I am still addicted to it and go weekly. It's my most important meeting of the week.