((((((((jexa)))))

There is nothing wrong with coming here for support. We are here to support you, whenever you need it. I am so sorry that this guy did not turn out to be as wonderful as he seemed at first. I'm so sorry that this happened.

You are a wonderful person and deserve someone who is just as wonderful as you are. This guy was not the one. You do not need to apologize to T. Your T will not be angry with you. Maybe you feel like you need to apologize to yourself? T will help you figure out what happened so that you can keep it from happening again. It takes time to break old habits that are comfortable (even if we know they are bad).

I'm so sorry this happened and wish I could do more for you than just write this post.