oh, my husband suspects something is going on, yet i continue in this behavior. i know it is wrong, i know it is hurting him...yet i put my own selfish needs first. i have never been this way, and i don't know why i have become this person that is so foriegn to me.
there are times when i cry in the shower, for an hour or more, over the hurt and pain i am causing him. yet i persist.
i am so very confused and apalled by the person i have been for the last year, yet i don't know why i do this.
i know i need some help, i just don't know where to get it.