Hi Blue...(((((HUGS)))))

I know what you are going through now is really scary. And I'm sorry that it feels as if your falling apart. You are asking some very good questions and I am proud of you for exploring this with your T. It's good you have a strong bond with him and it sounds lime he's really in your corner. Maybe ask him to give you some clear examples of the behaviors he has witnessed with you.

As far as the "personalities" being new....it seems the psychological community is swiftly moving away from this terminology and now referring to the parts as "identities". I just became aware of my parts last year. Up till then I had no clue they were there. Now that I am aware, I am able to see how and when these parts showed themselves when I was younger, in more subtle ways. The general concensus among Psychological experts is that NO person has one completely whole identity, and everyone's identity can and does split, it's just a matter of extremes. But everyone has what are called "Ego States". Basically an ego state is a side of a persons personality. An example would be how when a person is at their work, they usually act in a more professional way than they would if they were spending a night on the town with their friends. This is normal human behavior and everyone does this. DID is just a more extreme form of these ego states. The trauma they were faced with caused them such fear and pain that their ego states ended up seperating more and each state began to take on a bigger role in an effort to protect the mind. Now instead of having one not quite whole identity, one has one fractured identity whose pieces have moved further away from eachother. So, all of these parts or identities are all you (not other people), they're just more detached from eachother.

As far as being afraid of creating false memories...although this can and has happened before, it is sometimes linked to T's who, in an effort to get to deep information, can form these type of beliefs in their clients. Normally T's won't do this intentionally,but unfortuneatly there have been some who have. There are also fears that I have conjured within myself that I've wondered about their truthfullness but inside there has always been parts of me that can know what was truth or fiction.

Like I said before...you don't have to accept anything at this point, but I encourage you to hear what your T has to say and try not to internally fight the possibility. I know fro
experience that this label can be devastating. But it's not one T's tend to toss around lightly.

Your great memories are yours to keep forever. No one can take them away. Hold them close to your heart. Try and remember that in order for life to be good, there's going to be some bad that naturally comes along with it. You can't have one without the other. If you can't acknowledge the badness, how will we be able to identify the goodness.

Take care sweety!!!