I totally agree, WePow, trauma therapy is incredibly difficult but definitely worth the pain. Kind of like parenthood. Having done both, I'm not sure which is harder, especially when attempting to do both simultaneously!
You are doing great work. Your T understands how hard this is and you already know he respects your honesty and your courage to continue despite the occasional slip-up when you just can't handle it alone.
I hope you have a productive and healing session on Wednesday. You deserve it. (((((((WePow)))))))