I'm sorry for your loss. I hope you will be able to "let go" a little more when family comes.

You might be numbing when it comes to the reality of his ashes. Don't be surprised if you do let down and sob ... but don't feel like you aren't mourning if you remain calm too. People mourn in different ways ... and at various times too.

I know what you mean by breaking down with other stuff ... my mom will be gone 1 year on May 31st. I do rather well usually ... but just yesterday I was driving the street I would have taken to her home when an ambulance lights & siren running, came through the intersection on it's way to the hospital. It was all I could to do to regain composure before the light changed and I had to drive.