T was really supportive when I told her stuff. She wants me to tell w_i though. She said it is important that she know about what happened. She wants to make sure we are safe around H. I said we were. He doesn't do bad stuff anymore.
But now I think it is a mess.
I am supposed to protect w_i not hurt her. I protect from the s** abuse stuff. Always did.
Never gave her all the memory from Uncle. Can't from her H. Or other stuff that happened later.
T says that not telling won't help her to get better.
She says when I'm ready I need to write to w_i and tell her.
I can't even tell T the details. He did some horrible stuff.
I want to tell T--I need to tell someone cause it just stays in my head and i see it over and over.
I pet the dogs to remind me I'm safe.
But I close my eyes and it's there. All the stuff.
I could stay in, but if I'm upset, then w_i gets upset and doesn't know why.
I feel stuck
Vicki