Can i bounce thoughts off people?

Mindfullness (stopping and focusing on feeling the body, monitoring its sensations, hearing, tasting, and experiencing being here and now in the present) has given me a new awareness and way of being

...and negative thoughts and feelings still come in, the black beast still lurks there and I dont feel right.

I still 'break down' when the stressors get too much....

but is that just how it is?
is it broken just because it seems to not work as well as other machines work?
just because i dont function brilliantly... does that mean that i need fixing?
maybe this is all i can lookforward to in life... mudling through?

after several weeks of seeing a psychologist I feel that maybe... this is it? Maybe there isnt anything that can make life seem ok and balanced? maybe... life isnt ever balanced and okay...maybe its a continuuum of more and less balanced?