Jexa, first - I am SO PROUD OF YOU!! You are doing the work! The processing of the emotions is the hardest part. You mention "tempering" the emotions. I would recommend what my T says to me a lot because I tend to do the same thing with watering down the emotions... to allow yourself to FEEL FULLY the emotions at this time. You are doing right by not RE-acting out of fear. But you can ACT out of the wisdom you are gaining from your heard work.

It may be that you need to make an action plan for yourself. And it may be that you slip up again and do not do what YOU WANT to do. But the more you study the dance of your feet through this life, the more grace your life dance will have. And you will be able to enjoy it the way YOU want to enjoy it.