(( BC )) It sounds like you know already what will be in your best interests.
You know that therapy has to be honesty. If you are not free to lay it all out on the line for the T to sort through, than it really is not a good use of therapy time / money.
It is hard to make changes because we know what we have even if it is not the best. But it is familiar. So we keep what we know if we are getting anything at all from it that we may need. You do need a T. But you know that you deserve the top choice cut of steak and not just a fast food burger. You have more respect for yourself now than you did at the start of therapy. Take what you have learned and go get yourself the quality of help you need. You deserve it.