Okay, this may sounds petty but it's really been an issue. I lost my work cell phone and looked all over for it, finally found it at the grocery store. During the time it was lost, I could catch myself piling on the negative self-talk. I was able to stop it relatively quickly, but have been left with this reisidual of overwhelming feelings that are hard to describe- over such a little thing. THis isn't an uncommon pattern, I'm fairly disoragnized, though I think my awareness on the inensity of my response is.

When I lost my phone, My T called to tell me she got my message, then called again when she could not find it, even offered support about this being difficult, and linked this to another event we had talked about in my session a day prior. Things had been really kicking up and I have been seeing her 2x week for the last two weeks- really abmivalent about doing that, part of me wanted to part of me is scared to death to become dependent. Last week, we agreed to go down to 1x a week.

Twice a week is hard too, since I have to take off work during the day, not easy to do that right now.

So now I'm really a mess, and trying to pull it together before my daughter returns in a few hours. Not sure if I'm creating this issue so I can see T more often, if I should take this more seriously or less seriously.. Seems like a whole lot of emotional turmoil over nothing.

urg thanks for listening.