Paddy...
So beautifully written, thank you.
I was struck by the balance of payoff and payment...payoff: what we got from using...payment: what we got from using.
Wondrous highs
Free Falls into Despair...at an unparalleled speed
Out of the Depths of Despair...agony of millimeters gained, millimeters lost.
All in response to our Addiction
Addiction...seductive...possessive...hungry, never satiated

Breaking that choke hold on me was one of the hardest things I've done...and I remain fiercely protective of my being clean and sober.
Fierce! It's what it takes for me

In Peace