I ask my T this a lot. I believe him when he says, You will do it for as long as it serves a purpose for you.

So, my quest is to find other ways to do for myself what self-harm does. I think we can stop it only by working through it. For me, that means professional support. Maybe I will need to see someone forever. But I like the feeling of working towards being more healed and whole.

I hope you are able to bring yourself to imagine being up again. You can be up. You deserve to be.