I spoke with the on call doctor this morning and he wants me to go into the hospital for an evaluation. He did seem to think they would admit me especially since I had a dissociative episode last night and woke up with 34 cuts on my arms. I am going to go in tomorrow AM since I want to bring my kids with us to the hospital so tomorrow my one son will be in school and the other daycare.
I really hate the fact that I have to do this. The last time I was in the hospital for 7 days and it was really rough, especially since I had a 5 month old baby.
I know this is what I need to do and I am trying to remind myself of that.

Thank you for all your helpful comments, I really appreciate it!