It's scary isn't it!

I was so scared when I first started to work through all of it. Like you, I was so numb and shut down. I feel a lot more now. I spent a lot of the first few months in therapy just talking about what the numbness was like. After a while, as you feel safer and braver, some of the numbness will fade.

You don't have to remember everything to work through it. You just have to get through what is in you at the moment. Does that make sense? One breath at a time, one feeling at a time.

You are right that the anorexia is part of this, too, and you can fight it along with all the other nasty crap PTSD brings us.