Perna- Thank you for this! I hope to counteract my negativity, but I fail to be successful sometimes which discourages me in the future even more. I lose hope instead of gaining confidence.

I'll try to hang on though.

It's funny about the SI..you see, I've been thinking and I've realized that I'm not SI-ing any more, and the urges are small. However, I've haven't been eating lunch lately. I'm not a big eater to begin with, but when I don't eat, I start to feel better about myself. -_- I can't control this feeling. I've hated eating lunch for awhile, and not eating makes me feel better. Is this ok?
Billi- Hmm, I wish I could do what you are doing!

for me though, I'm just not as lucky. My negativity just rules me. :'(