I have been diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Avoidance Anxiety Disorder. I can understand my disorder. I know where it comes from, but I cannot find out how to fix or control it. I hate what has happened to treatment of mental health here in Canada. I can only find counselling if I am admitted into hospital, or if I pay out of my own pocket (which I cannot afford). I am living in this state of anxiety but cannot find the solutions. I now tend to question every action I choose to take (or not take, in case of avoidance) as if I am the sole cause for all of my problems. I seem to be in this circular hell of constantly making the same poor decisions or repeating actions that cause me to fail at certain life issues. How do I pull myself out of this nightmare?