So as I have posted before I am new to all of this...I am 23 and a lesbian. I have been in a recent relationship with my first girlfriend for the past year..we have had our ups and downs like everyone..for the past year we have broken up a total of 6 times and every time she goes back to her ex girlfriend. Well we recently got back together and broke back up within 3 days. I do have a trust issue with her because she sneak around and text her ex and calls and stuff while I am at work so I go through her phone, while I know you shouldn't do. Well our last break up has effected me very badly to the point I cry all the time I have lost so much weight its affecting my work my family and friends everything. I don't want to sleep because I dream of her I just want it all to be over. She tells me she loves me and is in love with me one min then the next she doesn't want to hear from me anymore! I am literally going to go crazy I am in love with her and can't move on!! She has me so depressed I am thinking about checking myself into the hospital because I can't take it anymore! What do I do I need help please anyone have any advice?