Hi evryone
For the past three weeks even though I am on meds, I am having a real hard time with wanting to live.
Last night I took some pills and drank a little wine, I was not trying to end my life but just try and stop my bad feelings. They are so powerful at times and I can't seem to get my mind straightened around until after I have done someting to my self that could/would be harmful to a certain point. I have overdosed before and have been in the hospital a few times for this.
I am afraid that I will just keep going until I end up in the hospital again.
I wish I could stop this cycle.
I am hoping that just writing this may help some
Thanks for listening/reading and for any ideas you may have to help me out.
I find that as a new user I feel safe here, as you all seem great.