<3<3<3<3MARY ALICE<3<3<3

As much as it has become cliche to say this, i know exactly what you mean. Why is it that you are cutting all ties to your T? This doesn't sound like a good idea at all! But if nothing else you know that you always have everyone on here on your side! No one here wants to see you hurt, and much less to see you hurt yourself. I know how hard it is to say no to those suicide impulses, I fight them every day. I suppose all we can do is just keep waking up, no matter how hard we pray at night to never wake up again. Perhaps (as hard as it is) you should maybe consider seeing another T? I can't necessarily say this would solve anything though, just an idea i suppose. I can tell you are such a caring and wonderful person just from your posts to me and others in the past, and the world would never be the same without such a beautiful person in it. Don't ever feel bad about whining here, that's what we're here for. Just know that I'm thinking about you and cheering for you!

*hugs* Kelly