((((((Garden Gal)))))))
I'm sure this is hard for you - I'd cry 6 hours straight too How much time do you still have with T? Was this sudden? Do you have time to work through this? Does he have ideas for your transition? My T is retirement age and I think about it all the time. Often i ask or tell her that she better not be retiring anytime soon.
My dr just moved away and I think i cried for a month everytime I thought of her or heard her name. It is still painful - like a death - and almost easier for me to think of her as that rather than around but not around me. weird, i know.
It is grief at its core - something hard to walk through when you have a strong connection. I'm sorry you have to go through this!!!
keep writing!