So sorry gravyyy - hope you get better soon. I can empathise with feeling so crappy and just blocking out all reality. I hope you at least manage to get some sleep - I usually take a sleeping tabs and pass out when I'm feeling like this. I know i can get "irrational" (Not sure that it really is irrational, at the time it definitely doesn't feel like it!) when I feel like this - I sms the whole world, I threaten to take all my tabs in one go just to get some release from the agony.
Drop me a PM if you want to vent - just rest in the knowledge that you do suffer from BP, which luckily comes in cycles; therefore this too shall pass