It saddens me that you have it so rough right now.
I admire you for the immense strength you portray,how you look after your wife, even when it seems she's given up, and still face your own personal challenges. How it's not easy being you, yet you still find the compassion to care for someone else.

You're a special person, don't you ever forget that!
Even though it might not seem like it now, I'm sure your efforts,love and compassion does not go unnoticed.

But you have to remember that in the midst of all this, there is YOU, and you need to take care of YOU. You are not expected to carry the weight of the world at the expense of your health, happiness and peace of mind...Please take the time to do something just for you. My brother wrote a song, and I quote one of the lines religiously "take it easy on yourself, cause no1 else will..."

You might not feel up to it, and part of you might just want to give up altogether,but it's a step in the right direction, REMEMBER: YOU ALSO MATTER! YOUR NEEDS ARE NO LESS IMPORTANT! YOU ARE WORTH THE EFFORT! YOU ARE WORTH THE ENERGY! YOU ARE WORTHY!!!
Best wishes & hugzz!!!