Hey there - do you have a pdoc and/or T you can talk to?
I wouldn't go jumping into a diagnosis just yet - ask someone professional, else it will just give you something else to worry about. Medication can really help you right now - it will help to regulate your sleep, and control your moods. Your anxiety can be lessened, as well as the paranoia.

Please get help soon; and if you are currently seeing a pdoc, I assume the meds are not working the way they should. The pdoc will help to stabilise you, to then get the most out of therapy once you are in a frame of mind to tackle the issues of your childhood. But you cannot expect yourself to be able to handle all of this on your own.