Today is 5 days clean for me since my relapse. I'm really wanting to stay clean but right now it feels like it's almost impossible. I have my sister on one side crying her eyes out because my dad just made her feel worthless (he's good at that. He does it to me all the time) and I have my dad on the other side screaming at me, "You're a piece of *****! Why are you defending her to me? After all the ***** she's put you through, you should hate her by now!"... I'm about ready to scream at the top of my lungs and just say f**k it all. *sigh* Why put ME in the middle of all this drama? I have enough fricken drama in my life as is without carrying others' drama. I can't win for losing.

When you get the strong urge to use, what do you use or what do you do to make the urge/craving go away? What is your coping mechenism, I guess is what I'm asking? I need advice on how to stay smart and clean. I'm losing it here.