I feel very similar about the lottery too. I had a friend in college who refused to ever buy a ticket. I respected his feelings but never really understood them.

Later on in life I realized how poorly my parents managed their money and my mom would always say "if only I won the lottery" and it began to sound like they were always in financial trouble NOT because they spent their money on extravagent things they couldn't afford, but rather because of the "unfairness" of not winning the lottery. My mom would sometimes sigh that we had no luck. I told her I believe that people make their own luck. For example by being careful with their money and not wasting it all hoping to win the lottery.

I've come to terms with that and I do play the lottery once in a blue moon (usually when something catches my eye) but I am careful, especially in the state that I am in now, when it is natural to feel as if I have bad luck and things are going so stressfully, that I don't give in to the feeling that I "deserve" to win the lottery or something. Does that make sense?

I think I'm just rambling...