First, if you ever want to talk more message me anytime.
I think part of why you feel like this is you're creating such a huge double life. I've done the same thing, started when I was your age actually. Why do you tell people you're hispanic? Do you want to meet your biological parents? You say you're ugly, but you also said guys asked you out last year. If they didn't like your looks and personality, why would they ask you out? Don't worry about your parents not allowing boyfriends until you're older, most parents do that. Mine do too, although I think their rule was no boyfriends until 15 or 16. Don't remember lol.

Please don't send naked pictures of yourself to anyone. I know you hear this alot, but it really is dangerous. I know adults say that kind of stuff alot, but I'm not much older than you (I'm 17), does that help?
I know how hard it is to be really shy and not have friends. So until you make friends, which you will, I'll be your friend

Don't let your grades drop! Think of it this way: good grades=college=boyfriend and friends!

Obviously you can still use the computer, there are websites with games that aren't as good as what you used to play, but theyre better than nothing. One is www.omgpop.com, some are pretty fun. Just be careful not to play too much, you don't want to be banned from computer too.

Have you tried making friends at church?

I hope you feel better soon, and remember you can message me anytime you want to talk, about anything