Tonight I broke up with my boyfriend of more than 5 years. After a very honest, very long conversation, we both agreed that it was the best course of action. We both cried and agreed to remain friends. I would be very sad no matter when this happened, but I have been struggling so much with depression lately, that it makes this especially hard. This is the second major loss I've had in the past week. I feel like I might be swallowed up by grief, it is so intense right now. I feel like I'm just barely hanging on.