That analogy to silk is powerful. Do you feel like you're lacking substance, or depth? I noticed "thing" too (a pretty thing), and I relate to that, as I tend to think of myself as an object - a thing to be used up and thrown away, and then when I feel useless it seems like time to be thrown away.

Good job putting it words and talking about it rather than acting on it. I hope that you can see that there is more to you, and you are a good person and worth something, but I know it's hard.

(((((((hugs)))))))))
Rap