Bama, some people just do NOT understand what addiction is and may never learn what you have to deal with on a daily basis. All we can do is try and tell them what it is about and hopefully someday they will learn. The same goes with mental illness. My father did not understand either for many many years. Now he has a little bit of knowledge about it. As far as you feeling like you are in the middle, step out of the middle. Let them fight between them selves and you just take care of what you need to keep yourself claen and sober. As far as what to do, thats tough because you have said you can not leave there yet due to financial reasons. Do me a favor if you will. Remember the first chip you got for staying clean. Put that in your pocket and leave it there. If you change clothes, keep it with you. When you feel the urge coming on, put your hand where it is and rub it. This will make you think what you had to do in order to get to that place and you can get there again. I remember I almost wore mine out from rubbing it so much allot of the time. It gave me something to focus on instead of wanting to use. I wish I had better advice but until you can remove yourself from that situation, it will be a tough road all the way. But as you know, I will be here for you every step of the way.

Allan