Hello & Welcome, Forestmonster! The following really jumps out at me:
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Originally Posted by forestmonster
The only time I'm happy is when I'm at my boyfriends house. His house is lively and we always have huge get-togethers there. My house is a negative environment, my family is always angry and they argue a lot. I stay out of it and stay in my room.
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It took me a long time to figure out and then admit to myself something was wrong with my family. Through your boyfriend, you have access to a much more functional, apparently "happy" family (I put 'happy' in quotes because I don't know how well you know your boyfriend's family, but your impressions of their liveliness are important). I hope you can observe, interact and learn much from that family.
Sure, some of the symptoms you describe (pulling away from friends, sadness, emotions inappropriate to the occasion, etc.) could be signs of clinical depression. Only a professional can determine that, though. I imagine your freedom of movement and therapeutic screening options are limited by your age and family situation (I could be wrong). Consider first checking out some of the resouces at PsychCentral:
Also, it may be useful to talk to someone from one of the following organizations. You may learn of free resources and support groups from them.
All the best to you, Forestmonster (and no need to worry about the length of your stories)!
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