I think we do tend to get a "story" going in our heads about death and don't really check it out. My worst time of being suicidal, I was pulled up short because I was saved by making a dentist appointment in the future. Can't be late/a no show for a dentist appointment! LOL. It got me to think harder about how my thinking affected my behaviors and other thoughts and how death "fit in" as part of my lifespan.