Thanks everyone. I really did want the answer to be no, but it's more like a you wish sort of thing. Last night was once again hard, my alter and I went at it for like 3 hours, even though it felt like 5 minutes. She was trying to do the ultimate SI, or just do something to let her mind be heard, It scared me so much that she whould do something like this. and Even now, i am afriad to be alone. And I'm alone right now. After I eat, then I'm leaving this appartment, and go to a place with peopel, I just hope it's with out the si. I'm scared, that I can't control her. I'm scared that she will do something to me in the form of si. I'm scared of HER. and she hates anyone that gets in her way, so she punishes me for not letting her. I really hate this. I want to be me.