He claims he wants to see me happier because he does care, Wendy, but that means he leaves me. Yes, you understand then......it scares me horribly. It's where I am now, sooner rather than later. I'm not sure that I have gotten enough strength accumulated to deal with being alone.

I have never had many "friends" in 3D. Only within the last two years have there been any at all and there is only 2.

He's talking double - one min. I can continue as long as I feel the need to, and then it's like today, deal with things because he can't be there and it can't go on indefinitely.

As for work, it is very wrong. I think it matters also - at the very least, my feelings should count, and to be told they don't hurt even more.

Stupid me today stopped by on my way home from my appt. with my T - stayed and helped: interviewed someone and set up the filing system in the drawers. On my day off, of course. I run for work when I am stressed so that I have to be in control of myself and not fall apart.

Pretty sad.