I am wondering if anyone has acheived the state where s/he feels completely normal (with meds, therapy, whatever or nothing). By completely normal I mean that you don't have the negative, excited or agitated thoughts to deal with. Or you don't have anxiety over change because your mind can't process it quickly enough, etc. You get the idea. The doc says it will take time. How long did it take for you. It seems like an eternity. 10 years, 20 years? I'll be close to 80 in 20 years. I can't wait that long. What gives here?

Please let me know your thoughts. I am so tired of the daily fight to keep my mind on a positive track--it's like correcting an untruly horse on a racetrack all day. Today I've felt ready to give up. If I give up, where will my mind go? Will I get worse? Lose my mind completely. I know there's the risk of snuffing out my light.