{{{{{{{Lady}}}}}}}}}}

No, we haven't discussed these things before, not to my knowledge anyway. He told me today that when we started therapy I had told him that I had wanted to get better. I have no memory of that. I have no memory of most of our early discussions, except for the last 6 months. Out of 2 years, that is bad. Those other meds wiped out everything except for a few flashbacks every now and then.

I've dug so far in that there is no light, no warmth, and not much air. Just cold, dark emptiness. I am mentally unreachable, my friend.

I am sorry.