I finally broke down today. life now is spinning out of control. today was outside doing some gardening, neighbor son came out yelling calling me calls. i wasn't paying no attention, that when he shots me with paintballs. after that I've been really sad. every family member & friends i called today wouldn't answer there phone. called T then i was like OH CRAP she gone for 3 wks vacation, I'm screwed it seems like everyone HATE'S me now. i hate this, i brought this on myself i keep thinking. everything falling all to pieces