We are lucky we live close to a hospital that has a Behavioral Emergency Center. You do have to go through the ER to get there but once they realize you have mental health issues they make you stand right by triage until a nurse comes to bring you to the BEC as they call it. Still it's pretty embarrassing standing there waiting while the police officers there keep an eye on you as if I am going to do something. I just wanted to tell him, look the only thing I am capable of is talking to you non-stop while I pace in front of your stand. lol

Last night I managed to get 3 and half hours of sleep. I fell asleep fast with the meds but woke up and then couldn't go back to sleep. I tried it again tonight and now I'm not even the slightest bit tired after 2mg of Ativan and 8 mg of Rozarem.
I have an appointment tomorrow afternoon with my pdoc. When I talked to him he said that if the sleeping meds weren't working and my lithium levels were not low that he may tell me I can't do this at home. I am pretty much prepared now for that answer and feel okay with this. Over 7 days, while I enjoy the energy, logically I know I am starting to do things that are unsafe and I just want it to stop.