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May 26, 2010, 12:12 AM
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Member Since: Jun 2008
Location: WYLTK
Posts: 768
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i don't know anymore...
my parents shared "their thoughts" today. my dad said tonight that they think i'm not working or moving forward cuz i have everything provided for me. his example was years ago when i was in college compared to now. um hello, that was before my depression cut my legs out from under me - duh, of course things are going to be different now! and my parents keep asking me about my "future" plans, like a year from now or five. all i can manage to say is that i don't have a plan. i don't want them to know what i truly think, which is that i don't even know IF i will be here a year from now...
and my parents think i'm just waiting around for a "cure-all" medication. wtf!!! they want me to go to a treatment program - screw that! it's no wonder i'm like an inch away from saying i quit. i can't tell them that i'm tired of fighting - it's been over four years with NO change! most people in my place would not have made it this far. and i have never been hospitalized - they should be so f-ing thankful!  it's things like this that make me just want to go to sleep and stay there for a while...
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